Max is back at school and we are nearly back to our normal routine. The rain is pouring and we are in need of a deep spring clean and a trip to the dump in the hope we can start to replace some of our tired furniture. I'm finding it a bit tricky to settle into a routine that is working for me though, but I know that eventually I will get there. I think it's because I pile so much pressure and expectation on myself that I don't really know where and when to stop.
This year is going to be a pretty full on year for me alone. Alongside working daily at Waterstones and blogging on two websites, I'm starting a Social Media course with Digital Mums and ploughing on with my charity work with Young Women's Trust. I'm so looking forward with seeing what I can achieve in this year but the thought of trying to juggle it all is filling me a bit with dread.
I'm one of those people that always thinks I can do better. It's a blessing as well as a curse as I find myself achieving so much but also burning myself out. I saw a post that a friend linked on Facebook that Thought Catalog had posted titled "20 Signs You're Doing Better Than You Think You Are" and it really hit home. I pile all this pressure on myself to improve everything. I compare myself to all the amazing bloggers I read and beat myself up that I haven't got x, y and z that it just makes all the great things I do achieve seem worthless.
So looking forward I'm going to be more positive. Yes I can sit on Rightmove and dream of those houses that we probably will never afford. But by doing so I won't have those moments to sit back and think "damn I've done a lot and I'm a pretty amazing woman". Yes I'm going to spend my life juggling but It will be so worth it at the end of it.